My name is Charlie Spice.
Many of you may wonder why I chose “P.I.M.P” as the title of my book, especially when I hated this word with such passion.
Over the years, people who wanted to ridicule or embarrass me for my involvement in the sex industry would refer to me as a pimp in the most derogatory tone of expression, In fact, most of them had no issue with prostitution. I would later discover that most of the people who pointed at me paid for sex on occasion or prostituted themselves in some form or fashion. Ironically, some even became my clients at some point in time.
Society hated me for openly doing what they secretly fantasized about or actually did discreetly.
The strategy behind the title P.I.M.P was to realise poetic justice. Hence the acronym “Peoples Indiscretions Managed Professionally”
I first became inspired to write my autobiography over twenty years ago during one of the life changing experiences, when I cheated death.
I was always told that my life was an amazing story that should be told to those who would dare to read it. During my travels, I often found myself in situations which seemed to come straight out of a fairy tale novel or a movie full of sex, drama, thrills, comedy and action. At times, my life was also like a horror story.
When is the right time to begin to write your memoirs?
I tried many times over the years and could never get it started. Looking back, it was a good thing I did not start writing it before now. I simply did not have sufficient maturity, understanding or consciousness about life, which I have today. I could not have written my memoirs any sooner with the same intelligence, clarity and unbiased perspective. I would have deliberately written horrible, vindictive things about the characters I disliked in my life and given fairy tale existences to those I was fond of.
My story would have become fiction.
What prevented me from sharing my story before now is centered around an experience I had between the ages of 6 and 16, which I now know to be the fundamental basis for every single choice I made in my highly controversial life, and the person I have become to this day.
This experience stemmed from a single act of betrayal and infidelity that became the catalyst to the biggest scandal in my circle of family and friends who were scattered across the Caribbean, United States, Canada and the United Kingdom.
Later in life, it became clear that the profound psychological impact which this experience had on me is largely responsible for the subconscious love/hate regard I had for women from a very early age until a few years ago.
I never trusted women, love or relationships.
This also caused me to view sex merely as a currency or commodity to get what you want in life. It was also a tool for manipulation or just means to a ‘Happy Ending” for the moment.
This traumatic event in my life made me is the perfect personification of the expression often used in psychology “Show me a boy of five and I will show you a man of thirty five.”
The challenge I had was deciding whether or not I should publish details of this event in my book. The fear was that it could possibly destroy the good relationship I now enjoy with people who are very dear to me. These relationships were lost for years. Why open old wounds long after they healed and pour salt in them.
On the other hand, how could I not include the very experience that is my true “Raison D’etre”? The very core of my existence without which, I would not have had such an amazing journey. My autobiography would have been a story about a conservative accountant with a boring, predictable life.
This dilemma went on for years. Eventually I decided to include it so that the book would fulfil all its purposes and intentions. Most importantly, it would also offer me full closure.
Initially the purpose for writing my memoirs was to make millions from a best seller. I always knew I had an unimaginable story that people would find irresistible and compelling to read. I had no doubt my autobiography would be a best seller.
But as I matured, writing became a way of rediscovering myself. It was also a way of getting to know the person I had become and my true purpose in this life. It was also a way of understanding the complexities of my life and finally coming to terms with the good and bad experiences.
As I relived my life through my writing, my maturity enabled me to have a better understanding of all my actions and those of the characters I met along the way. It also helped me better understand the reasons for the choices I made and the consequences. Nothing in my life has ever been more compelling than telling my story to the world.
Each time I sat down to write another chapter of my story it was pure magic from start to finish. I was never at a loss for words or content as the material came directly from actual experiences. The only challenge was finding the style of writing which would enable my readers to relive my life through the eyes and emotions of each character, at each stage of my journey.
Each time I wrote, I was transported back to that very moment in time. I found myself capturing the story as though it were live. As I relived the scenes, I could feel the same excitement, fear, pain, anger, sadness, happiness and at times the anxiety rush which I felt back then.
My story is 100% factual even though it will seem so surreal at times. The scenes and experiences are all real but the names have been changed to protect the innocent as well as the guilty.
For years, I had been scared even to discuss my intention to write about my life in the sex industry. There was always the risk that the powerful and influential personalities who used my services to book prostitutes, call girls, escorts and hookers, would be petrified of being named and shamed in my memoirs.
Imagine the reaction when someone who knows many scandalous secrets of prominent people worldwide and then announces that they are writing an autobiography. This would scare the shit out of my clients, any of whom would pay for and sign my death warrant.
During my tenure in the sex industry, I held delicate information close to my chest. I had knowledge of cheating husbands and wives, secret gay lives, perverted sexual tendencies, sexual inadequacies and, and, and …. This type of delicate information can topple political and business careers, lower share values on the stock market, break up marriages and destroy families.
Many of my clients were ruthless characters and were more than capable of having me killed if they felt that their lifestyles would be compromised by my book. This was another concern.
For the record, let me assure everyone that my intentions are not sinister in any way. This book is not intended to name and shame anyone.
In 2009, my journey back in time had finally begun. To keep readers engrossed in my story, I used the strategy of becoming both author and reader as I wrote. Each time I started to write, I made sure I was in a quiet room with no one around to avoid distraction. I would close my eyes for a few minutes to focus on the past to set the mood and the scene.
As you read my memoirs, please surrender your emotions to me. Allow yourself to become part of each moment as I take you back in time with me. This book will also cause you to experience powerful emotions. To capture the full essence of my story you will need to embrace every emotion.
My style of writing may seem a bit hard core at times. But it is intended to create an accurate re-enactment of the events as they unfolded in my life. I am merely sharing the true perspective of each experience, based on my level of maturity at the time.
Although there is hard core eroticism, harsh interpretations and expletives in this book, there is a very powerful underling message which is intended to give some benefit to readers who have had similar experiences or can relate for some reason.
Allow me to say that it is not my intention to glorify the sex trade or condone any of the choices I made. Remember that we are all affected differently by the experiences and influences we have at the various stages of our personal development.
Some of the things I have done in my life may offend and upset you and others who read my book. For this I am truly sorry, but I must tell my story just as it actually happened or tell none of it. By the way, I make no apologies to readers for the choices I have made in my life. But I do apologise to anyone I may have offended, disrespected or hurt in my life.
Thank you for allowing me to share my life with you.